I’m in a live-in relationship. With a stranger. No, don’t jump to the conclusion that it’s a boyfriend. Nor is it a girlfriend. Just a stranger. Someone I live with, someone slightly beyond a roommate. Which is why I call it a live-in relationship and not sharing the same room.
We don’t talk much, just casual comments once in a while or if I get lucky, we might have a quarrel, yell at each other. That’s the maximum level of conversation between us. Not even a decent talk. We don’t know much about each other, what’s happening with the other, each other’s friends, lives, worlds… In fact, we are not a part of each other’s worlds.
We stay under the same roof, sleep in the same room…yet, we are strangers to each other. I am not trying to exaggerate when I use the word ‘strangers’. I mean it. There is no other word to describe what we are. Because we aren’t even close enough to be called friends or acquaintances.
She was someone I used to know, though that feels like long ago. Someone who knew me inside out; someone whom I knew so well, too. We used to have endless talks about everything, literally everything… So many evenings of senseless prattling, late-night movies, going out together… She knew everything that was going on with me, and I was the one person she confided in. Like BFFs – best friends forever. Hah! Only, forever didn’t last for long!
I don’t know when that bond started fading off. But fade off it definitely did. I’d put most of the blame on the distance and the fact that she had new people in her life to replace me. Anyway, by the time I noticed the changes, it was too late. I did try, in whatever way I could, to regain the bond we once had. But just when I think things are getting better, she would prove me wrong. As if trying to tell me, indirectly, that we’ll never be the same. And so, now, I’m living with a stranger. Who used to be a hell lot more for me. Whom I miss like hell!
Im sure that the ‘stranger’ will realise one day how much she needs you..! 🙂
Yeah, hopefully!
okie.. kinda scary! initially i thot u meant me! is it who i think it is?
Very well could be! 🙂
This is so sad! And also scary! God, i pray this never happens to me!
I hope it doesn’t. Not to you, not to anyone else!
I have faith that things will get better. Time changes many things and one day you will look up and the stranger is once again, a friend.
🙂 I guess I’m holding onto that hope, too.
Keep holding on. Can you…?
🙂 How can I not? How would life go on without that last shred of hope to hold onto?
Oh no, I know you can! The can you was about something entirely different. So, can you… are you able to… Wanna get back to what we started a few days ago?
Sometimes time and distance change the way we look at people. As we get older, our interests change, we meet new people and sometimes the ones we love move away. Despite all that, it’s good to try and maintain the friendship and hope they will reciprocate, eventually. Keeping fingers crossed that your friend will remember all the good times you shared and feel that friendship again. 🙂
🙂 Thank you so much for your kind words! I’m keeping my fingers crossed, too!
sometime’s some friendships are for a season, and when it comes to family we all go through our phases- what ever the case may be I hope all works together 🙂
🙂 Same here. And, it’s seriously SO GOOD to see you back! 🙂
the temporal aspect of all relationships is scary and no doubt quite a nightmarish reality! very well expressed Roshni!
Thank you. Glad you liked it! 🙂
Isn’t is so hurtful? How do you manage and why not to stop waiting? Sometimes giving up the best medicine.. just thoughts Anyways nice post 🙂
I don’t think I can give up…not yet. 🙂
Hmm.. hope you sort it out soon.. I’ve a quote for you .. “Do before you die” 🙂
Wow! I believe in that, too. Sure will put it into action! 🙂
Hope for the best gal! 🙂
Someone would shifts to that STRANGER position soon. Wait and see… 😀 🙂
Cheers..!
Keeping my fingers crossed! 🙂
😀 😀
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