I realize that it has been a long time since I blogged. Some of my closest friends did ask about it and urged me to resume blogging (Once, Kiran told me I shouldn’t get used to NOT blogging. But then, I think that’s what happened, eventually). The problem was not lack of will or desire. I wanted to blog, yes. But I lacked the inspiration – that uncanny sense and ability to string together words and form a sentence, and to create a bunch of sentences like that, which make sense, ultimately. I got away with that “excuse” for a long time. Until I had to give an answer to myself. The conversation with myself went something like this:
Why are you not blogging?
Because I don’t find the inspiration for it.
Is that reason enough for not doing something you enjoyed so much?
Did you never have thoughts that were worth blogging about?
Hell, yes, I did!
Then why did you never do it?
I don’t know…I just didn’t feel that urge to sit down and put those thoughts into words.
Did you try?
Did you try to find the inspiration somewhere?
Umm..not really, but, at times, yes.
Well…(clears throat)…All I can say is that what I found wasn’t enough.
Do you even realize how stupid that sounds?
Without ever genuinely trying to find inspiring thoughts or using what you found or even trying to write something, how can you blame everything on the lack of inspiration?
Ok, maybe I was also lazy.
Makes sense. Do you know that you have a responsibility to yourself, to do what you love and enjoy? The responsibility to do what you’re passionate about? Because that’s the only way you will ever contribute anything!
Yes, I know that.
Great! Now that you have come clean and knocked some sense into your head, please get down to doing what you do best. And no, I don’t mean lazing around!
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And that conversation is what brought me here, to this page, after so long. I love talking to myself. I do it at random instances but most often when I’m in extreme moods (extremely angry, happy or sad). And it always helps me clear my head in a way nothing else does. Whenever I’ve spoken to myself, I’ve always come out of the mood with some thought that was powerful enough to make an impact. And I love the fact that I have the power to change my state of mind. 🙂
When I started off with this post, I had no idea about what to write. I just wanted to start with it, just try to do it instead of complaining. And I must say I’m very glad with the outcome. Even though it’s really nothing more than a pointless, stupid conversation with myself. Now, all I need to do is make sure that I don’t fall back into the ‘Lazy Mode’ and leave this space to gather dust until the next time I get some sense into my head. *Fingers crossed*
- What’s Your Excuse? (joshwaugh.wordpress.com)
- Seven reasons to continue blogging – even when you want to quit (kevin.lexblog.com)
- Stop Over thinking, Just Do It, Just Blog It (doitchoco.wordpress.com)