Moving On Can Be Super-Scary!

I just have two more weeks left! I don’t believe this. I can’t believe almost two months have gone by so fast! I’m already going crazy, thinking of the hell lot of stuff I’ll have to do once I get back. And apart from the tension, one emotion that’s been disturbing me is the sorrow of leaving. Once I start working, I have no idea when I’ll be able to come here on a vacation like this. For now, I’m just pushing aside that thought. For later.

It might sound stupid to some and crazy to some others. Even I’m amazed at what I’m about to embark on. I have absolutely no idea about what to do or how to go about with things, once I get back to India. I’m planning to move to a city that’s completely new and strange to me. I don’t even have close friends there! And I have no plan, not even a rough idea of how I intend to make this happen. Am I scared? Hell, yes, I am. Am I tensed? Yes, very much, even though I’m keeping a large part of it for later.

I seriously don’t know how I am going to find a place to stay, live by myself, manage everything by myself in a completely new city… I did NOT tell my parents about how scared I’m. I don’t think I ever will. They are already pretty freaked out and tensed. They tried tempting me with the idea of working over here. But I stayed firm on my decision. Anyway, I don’t want them to know I’m super-clueless, too. All that worry could be injurious to their health. 🙂

I did talk about this with some friends. Some of them said they believed I could do it, that I’d be able to pull through these situations. But a couple of my closest friends (one of them being Saba) were really concerned and asked me to think well before deciding. Saba, in particular, was super-worried. She tried her best to talk me into staying here. And, to be frank, she made me think about a lot of aspects that hadn’t occurred to me. Anyhow, eventually, she supported me in my decision. Not because I convinced her or anything (I doubt I’ll ever be able to do that!). But because she knows me.

For one thing, I’m firm (read: stubborn) when it comes to my decisions. Another thing, as she rightly pointed out, is that if I fall for my parents’ suggestion and stay back, I’ll never be able to feel fully happy. I will always wonder how things would have turned out had I gone forward with my plan. And it will keep gnawing at my happiness. So, she told me that it’s better that I go ahead with my decision. Otherwise I’ll never be happy. 🙂 I love her for saying that!

I’m aware of the risk I’m taking. I know things can go wrong. Very wrong. But, let’s just be positive. And, even if something goes wrong, I know I’ll deal with it somehow. That’s what life is about, after all. That’s how you learn to live! Exactly why I want to take this risk. I want to get out of the comfort zone that I’ve been in all these years, know what it is like to live by myself, deal with problems on my own…experience life. 🙂

Lot of hopes, dreams…and yes, a tiny bit of worries. Let’s wait and see how things turn out to be! 🙂

Now, That’s An Idea!

Well, before you ask, I’m feeling a lot better. I guess the writing out really helped. 🙂 I watched this fun movie today, laughed a lot and got no time to dwell on my sadness. It has this crazy song which I’ve been humming ever since I saw it…and in short, the day has turned out to be far better, happier than yesterday, definitely.

I read some random blogs…and even found some that I truly loved, beyond a one-time read, that is! 🙂 And…guess what? I’m meeting Saba tomorrow morning *super-wide smile*. That was just the thing I needed. She is one person I love being with. Because she exudes a kind of positive energy and…I feel so happy when I’m with her. Not like I’m not happy being with my other friends. But being with Saba is special, in its own way. So, looking forward to meeting her! 🙂 What are your plans for the weekend?

I’ve been thinking about topics/stuff I could blog about. And I did come up with a couple of possible thoughts but I’m just not in the mood to talk about anything in specific. Perhaps it’s my good ol’ laziness.

But guess what? I’ve an idea. Why don’t you give me a helping hand? 🙂 A helping idea, to be precise! Well, what I’m implying is: if you have any possible ideas which you would like me to blog about (maybe because it’s interesting/not blogged about/you just want to know what I think/whatever), any ideas at all, do let me know, in the Comments section. And better yet, you could also post questions that you would like me to answer (personal or otherwise, though I could choose not to answer some overly personal questions). Come on, this is your one awesome chance of getting a post on your choice of topic in my awesome blog! 😀 Pour it in, people!