Of Laws & Books

First post of 2015! 

I think Sir Isaac Newton was a genius simply for formulating the First Law of Motion – the Law of Inertia. Not that his other achievements are less brilliant, but I think the First Law is my all-time, top favourite. I see it manifested in so many ways, all around me, particularly in me. I wonder if Newton must have thought about the implications of his law in a personal aspect. Most people continue with their state of rest or activity (read: routine) unless acted upon by another force, which, I believe, could also be internal ( like, self-motivation, inspiration). My blog would be a perfect example. I remain lazy and “busy” until some sort of external/internal force comes into play. Once I get into the routine of regular blogging, I tend to continue it (like now). Until evil forces deter me. In this context, evil forces would be anything that keeps me from blogging. So, that’s the application of Law of Inertia in my blogging habits.

Much to my embarrassment, my WordPress Annual Report says that I’ve put up hardly 10 posts in 2014. And, trust me when I say I feel truly bad about it. I hope 2015 turns out to be a better year for my blog and that I’ll be better able to overcome the sinister powers (including lethargy & laziness).

I finally completed ‘The Fountainhead’ by Ayn Rand. Thanks to my schedule and lack of effort, it took me almost 5 months! That’s nothing less than atrocious, I’d say. But I’m glad I persisted. Because it’s one hell of a book! I absolutely loved it. I agree it has serious content in the form of concepts and philosophies which might seem a little too complex at times, but I enjoyed it, nevertheless. I was drawn to some of the concepts, like, for instance, the perspectives about selflessness as “the lack of self” and selfishness as “self given prime importance”. Another thought that appealed to me was the need of man to create for himself, rather than for others.

The book has some of  the strongest characters I’ve ever come across. In fiction, that is. I’m not going to harbour the fantasy that such people could exist in real life! I highly doubt there can be individuals like Howard Roark and Dominique Francon who are so rooted in their principles. I loved the character of Gail Wynand as the man “who could have been”. At the risk of sounding sentimental, I’ll admit that my heart went out to him, reading of the pain he suffered when he realized his power over people would prevail only as long as he said what they wanted him to say.

While reading, I have the habit of underlining whatever catches my attention. My copy of ‘The Fountainhead’ is filled with very frequently underlined parts. Which clearly indicate how much it has captivated me. So much that I think I’ll need a bit of time before I move on to another book. And, even when I do, I know the characters of this one will still be etched in my mind.

Stepping back into real life, my college will reopen tomorrow…which means: back to the same, hectic routine. But I’m going to try and overcome the force of “busyness” so that I can continue in this state of activity. 🙂

 

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How A Soliloquy (nearly) Saved My Blog from Becoming Extinct

I realize that it has been a long time since I blogged. Some of my closest friends did ask about it and urged me to resume blogging (Once, Kiran told me I shouldn’t get used to NOT blogging. But then, I think that’s what happened, eventually). The problem was not lack of will or desire. I wanted to blog, yes. But I lacked the inspiration – that uncanny sense and ability to string together words and form a sentence, and to create a bunch of sentences like that, which make sense, ultimately. I got away with that “excuse” for a long time. Until I had to give an answer to myself. The conversation with myself went something like this:

Why are you not blogging?

Because I don’t find the inspiration for it. 

Is that reason enough for not doing something you enjoyed so much?

Well…

Did you never have thoughts that were worth blogging about?

Hell, yes, I did!

Then why did you never do it?

I don’t know…I just didn’t feel that urge to sit down and put those thoughts into words. 

Did you try?

No. 

Did you try to find the inspiration somewhere?

Umm..not really, but, at times, yes. 

And…?

Well…(clears throat)…All I can say is that what I found wasn’t enough. 

Do you even realize how stupid that sounds?

Yes. 

Without ever genuinely trying to find inspiring thoughts or using what you found or even trying to write something, how can you blame everything on the lack of inspiration?

Ok, maybe I was also lazy.

Makes sense. Do you know that you have a responsibility to yourself, to do what you love and enjoy? The responsibility to do what you’re passionate about? Because that’s the only way you will ever contribute anything!

Yes, I know that.

Great! Now that you have come clean and knocked some sense into your head, please get down to doing what you do best. And no, I don’t mean lazing around!

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And that conversation is what brought me here, to this page, after so long. I love talking to myself. I do it at random instances but most often when I’m in extreme moods (extremely angry, happy or sad). And it always helps me clear my head in a way nothing else does. Whenever I’ve spoken to myself, I’ve always come out of the mood with some thought that was powerful enough to make an impact. And I love the fact that I have the power to change my state of mind. 🙂

When I started off with this post, I had no idea about what to write. I just wanted to start with it, just try to do it instead of complaining. And I must say I’m very glad with the outcome. Even though it’s really nothing more than a pointless, stupid conversation with myself. Now, all I need to do is make sure that I don’t fall back into the ‘Lazy Mode’ and leave this space to gather dust until the next time I get some sense into my head. *Fingers crossed*

Bits & Pieces

I know I’ve been super-lazy. I haven’t been posting as regularly as I used to. Even when there’s enough and more happening in my life. So, like I mentioned in an earlier post, I’m going through a good phase in life. I’m learning so many new things, going through some great experiences, realizing, thinking… I was extremely demotivated with things at work, for a while, and now, I’ve started pushing myself to put in my best.

So, at this point, I guess it’s natural that my blogging gets better, too. Yesterday, I found this blog while going through some random blogs – 53 weeks. The basic concept behind it is – a theme is chosen, and a photograph based on this theme is posted each week, for 53 weeks. Do check it out! I love the photography! Well, it got me thinking. Each week, out of all the photographs the person takes, he has to choose one that deserves to be given focus, to be featured as the photograph of the week. It’s kind of like order in chaos, because when there’s a lot and you focus on one (of anything, for that matter), there’s a sort of clarity, a light.

And I realized I could use that thought for my blog, too. Not necessarily or solely using photographs, though. What I have in mind is – pick out one striking thing about each day, blog about it. It could be a thought, an incident, a song, something someone said, something I read or saw, a realization, a person, anything. Absolutely anything. Out of all that happens in a day, concentrate on one striking moment. Let’s call it the bit of the dayI’m planning to do this on a daily basis, or atleast post on alternate days. And I’m going to try my best not to let my laziness get in the way.

Let’s start off with today. When I think of what to blog about, I usually fall short of ideas & thoughts. But now, when I try to pick out one remarkable incident, so many come to mind. Anyhow, I already know what today’s bit is going to be – the thought that I got from 53 weeks. Ever since I came across the site, the thought of doing something similar for my own blog has been in mind. I’ve been thinking about it whole day. The idea happened by chance. It’s different, thought-provoking and awesome (like me?). It’s going to get me thinking, give life to my (sporadic) blogging habit, give me a chance to focus on some thoughts/instances that I would have otherwise neglected. I’m sure it’s going to be a great experience. So there! I’ve started off!

Taken Over By Laziness… :P

I know I’ve been really lazy and my recent posts sound like nonsense, more than ever  (this one will probably beat it!!). And I feel really bad about it. Trust me, I do. I haven’t been feeling all that great during the past couple of days. I did try to write something, to be honest. But I was completely blank, didn’t know what to write, couldn’t think of anything good enough to post. Today, I thought I should finally sit down and post something…just push myself to do it, or I would never get over my lazy phase. 😛 And here I am! Tadaaaa!

I’ve been sitting in front of the computer screen for almost an hour. And yet, this is all I was able to come up with. Must be a serious attack of writer’s block, I suppose. By the way, I finished the book I was reading – Flesh & Blood by Jonathan Kellerman. I read the outline on the back cover and I bought it because it seemed to have a lot of psychology in it. And I absolutely love psychology! Later, when I  googled the author, I found out that he is, in fact, a psychologist. Anyway, the book was a great read. It maintains the level of suspense right from the beginning till the end. I was really engrossed in it, never found it boring at any point. But for some reason, I wasn’t exactly satisfied with the way it ended. I don’t know what else I wanted, because there was nothing wrong or bad with its ending. Yet, somehow, I just didn’t feel complete after I finished it.

Anyway, I had a lazy weekend. Went out on a couple of days, loafed around, read a book, watched some movies, blah blah. Nothing new. And yes, I tried to get over the low I seem to be experiencing. I tried books, coffee, music, going out…the usual. I wouldn’t really say it worked, but yeah, I’m feeling a tiny bit better.

I’m planning to watch some of my all-time fav movies…I kinda have a feeling that could do the trick! Let’s see. 🙂 Do hang around, anyway. I’m sure I’ll come up with something better next time, and you wouldn’t want to miss it! 😛