Sleepy & Babbling

I’m disappointed. And irritated. And angry. All at myself. I haven’t been trying to find time for what I love the most. Even when it comes to diary-writing, I wrote something on Sunday, after a gap of almost three weeks. I’m so NOT liking this.

I haven’t had any dearth of topics to write about. There were times when I felt moved to write about some incidents. But, well, that never happened (evidently). For the past two days, I’ve been working on this one post and it hasn’t gotten anywhere yet. So, today, I got tired of feeling bad and not doing anything about it. I decided I would post something, even if it turns out to be random nonsense (like always!).

Life’s going fine. Work is good. I’ve almost got used to the surroundings and started fooling around with people (which happens only when I’m comfortable). I’m not saying it’s all good and happy every day. It does get on my nerves, at times. I miss lazing around. But that’s ok, I suppose I’ve done more than enough of that during my three years at college. ๐Ÿ™‚

During these three weeks, I’ve learnt a lot. I have observed people, understood a lot about some, realized some painful truths and yes, learnt some lessons, gained some experiences. One basic lesson is : Do NOT trust anyone blindly; take your time. People can be really weird and I’ve realized that I should take my time before I decide to trust someone (Exceptions possible). I think I have heard and seen enough to get it into my head.

Apart from that, I’ve had a lot of thoughts (nothing new there!). Serious thoughts about what I’m doing, my future, the people in my life, what I want in life… Yet to find answers, though. By the way, have you noticed? The Freshly Pressed posts have been awesome, during the past two days particularly. Very thought-provoking, beautiful posts.

Today, I was sort of moody. So, on the way back, I got into this bookshop near my home. Having a lot of books around me helps in lifting my spirits. Works always, worked today. But I think I’m back to the moody phase. I’ll get over it, I’m sure. Meanwhile, thanks to all the strong emotions in my head, I have been writing a good lot ofย nonsense stuff in my diary. ๐Ÿ™‚ Am I rambling too much? Maybe I’m just sleepy…

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Today was…ummm…good. Nothing great, but nothing bad either. Plus, there’s still a few more hours left. You never know what could happen the next moment, right? ๐Ÿ™‚ I always remain hopeful! We had this session on training for interviews and stuff. It was far better than all the classes I have sat through till date. I was actually able to grasp something out of it, and best part is that I felt involved in it, for the first time. Usually, I sit through such sessions without bothering to listen or pay attention. Because ultimately, I do not find it to be of any use to me. Today was different, though. I loved it. And in many ways, it was thought-provoking.

Unfortunately, I’m at a loss to think of anything to blog about. So, I suppose this will be another one of my random ramblings. ๐Ÿ˜› Even though I mostly blurt out a lot of stupidities, I have an intellectual side to me (Surprise!!!). But, interestingly, I know nothing about current world affairs, not even some major happenings or facts. And I would definitely go blank if you start questioning me on the Who’s Who stuff. On the other hand, if you ask me something more random, some odd topic or fact, I might be able to tell something about it…a tiny bit, atleast! ๐Ÿ™‚ Sometimes, I wonder how you could actually gauge a person’s intellectuality. I mean, even an IQ test might not always be able to indicate it accurately. There can always be exceptions, right?

I love asking questions (that might be obvious by now). And one question I always ask people I meet is: If you get to know that tomorrow is your last day, what would you do? My answer is: I would let my loved ones know how much they mean to me, spend time with my friends and loved ones, have fun, do crazy stuff, laugh a lot, be happy, do what I want…basically, live fully. ๐Ÿ™‚ Some people ask me why I think about tomorrow being the last day… I ask them why it could not be. Their reply would be, “Because tomorrow won’t be our last day.” How dumb is that! I mean, how could you possibly know if you will be alive tomorrow or the very next moment even? So, what I try to do with my questions is make the person aware that they might not have another day on earth, implying that they should seize the day and live life! ๐Ÿ™‚ Simple enough!

Most of us wait to live life. We keep the ‘living’ aside for later. We study, go through school, college and job…thinking we can always get to the next phase and have fun, live life. But somehow, we never seem to get there. Who complicated life so much, anyway? I’m looking forward to be part of a world where people live each day to the fullest, in whatever way they want, simply relishing each moment of each day. Sounds good, doesn’t it? When you live truly and in the moment, you find happiness. Because you know the next moment may not arrive, that worrying about it will be of no use.

Do I ramble too much? ๐Ÿ˜€